Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Sums up how I feel right now.

It's perfect. It's us.

No matter what, we've as strong as we ever were.

Thursday, July 7, 2011

I heart my soldier

So a recent post of a friend inspired me to write this post. (I'll later include a picture).

I met Ben back in November 2009. I was completely frustrated with men and a friend that we had in common told me to message him. Now, he was out in Seattle, I was told, stationed as a soldier in the army. I thought- eh I'll send him a message and see what he's like. It might be fun to have a pen pal and he'll have someone he can correspond with. Little did I know that I was going to fall for him!

We started messaging each other and soon we realized we completely clicked! Ben threw it out there and asked for my number so we could text and not be so tied to the computer. 6 weeks later, we were meeting for the first time.

I immediately noticed his smile and friendly personality. He was just all around amazing and fun to be with. We spent every day of the next few weeks together while he was on leave. Insepearable and he made me sooo happy!!

Ben was deployed right when he returned to Seattle, but we didn't let it stop us. We sent each other letters, emails and we talked almost every night online. I couldn't get enough of him! Soon enough it was May and he was back home for another visit.

While he was visiting, we knew we didn't want to spend any more time apart. It's been over a year since then, and yes we're still apart. It's really hard, but I knew that I had to finish school before we could move on and make further plans, and Ben has always been so supportive of my school and my goals and would never let me abandon them.

My schooling is almost over and now we're thinking about next steps. When I can move to be with him and what our future will look like. It's really exciting, but now that he's left again, its hard at the same time.

The whole time he's gone I will think about him ALL the time, the letters will go back and forth and hopefully this next 6 months will go by fast! I'm so proud for all that he does, but its so hard to see at the same time. We both keep remembering that this will be worth it in the end! By the time we live together, we will have been doing this long distance thing for over 2 years. When I sent him that first message online, I NEVER would have thought that I would have waited over 2 years, but he's so worth it.

Nobody understands why I wait except the other girlfriends and wives who also wait. It's just an indescribable feeling and you just know its right. So until then, here I am.